me,, working again...

Oct 11, 2007 at 5:17 PM
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So, Ramadan ends tomorrow.. it's a sad thing after all...
i was strongly connected to God.. and i like it.. but after Ramadan,, usually our strength weakens, and i hate it..
i wanna stay in this level of worshiping,, but even in Ramadan, i felt weaker in the last days, because when you have a jump start in the beginning, you usually end up in the same level before you start.. and this is not good,, i'm trying to change what's in me for the best.. i wanna be a better person.. and this is sometimes hard, because of the environment im living in, the friends, the way of life, life itself is hard, after all...

well, starting with this thing, when i felt religiously weaker than the start of the Month, i started to think, what do i want after this month ends? ,, how can i rearrange my life again so i can have a good start for a better life with God and be more productive, more effective person... be BETTER by all means...

i'm still looking for guidance to start something, any good thing will work.. i got ambition, i got energy, and i know that i'm not a loser, and a quitter,, but sometimes, i hold myself back for no reason..

i'm enjoying my life most of the time,, but it's not the life i want.. i don't wanna be someone who has the story:
" Born, Lived, then Died " ... it's boring.. i need some real goal, something to work hard for, something to contend for achieving.. something with Glory,, with big thing..
Living an easy life was never for me.. actually, i hate living a steady life, everything is Ok, and everything is easy.. for me, being worried about something is okay ..

and o got a lot to say..

Time for break the fasting,, it's the last day of Ramadan..

Happy Eid.. :)

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Happy Eid! I understand what you mean, this month has so much meaning. Sometimes we go astray even during the month, but you just have to keep trying. God values your efforts, He knows we aren't perfect and we will make mistakes. When you have good intentions in your heart that is what matters. I know for me this Ramadan it wasn't as I planned - I did get to fast a lot but I wanted to pray more, I wanted to read an entire Quran - but I never got to read it all and I was thinking about that last night. I also wanted to do some special prayers for the Night of Power- didn't get that done. Its hard when there is so much around you, so many distractions, but don't worry. Hang in there! God helps those who ask, and God will guide you just ask...like it says in the Quran if you walk to God, He will run to you!

I suspect that if you do the best that you possibly can at everything that you say you will do that you'll find life to not only be challenging, but also rewarding.

Set a theme for each year - for example one year may be about Service and another about Learning and for that year do everything you can to live out the Theme for the year.

Do the ordinary things of life with Passion and your life will be extraordinary!