Lost in Trance..

Opening The Next Chapter Of Life.. !

nobody@vox.com(Socceraholic..) — Sat, 15 Dec 2007 21:39:38 +0300

well,, i came up with a result for my life tests that i had in the past few months..

LESS FRIENDS = LESS PROBLEMS.... at least for me.. well yea sometimes it should go this way.. and it should be this way.. yea,, i have less number of people to rely on,, less close friends,, but seems like i had better people to rely on this time.. better people to trust.. people that i can call and talk to in whatever thing i find and still can get something back from them that helps..

not that i quit my social life, not at all... but i'm kind of more careful when it comes to talkin about my life and asking someone for something... yea i know sometimes i'm over-counting on my friends and it's hard on them, but thank god they understand it.. they know the problems i had and they showed their total support... and as far as i know,, those who lost me are stuck in their problems, all i see from them is someone cryin,, another one being cheated on from his girlfriend and i'm not interfering ,, and a 3rd that is stuck in the middle of his life with almost no friends, and a 4th just realizing that " it sucks to feel disappointed in a friend, but hey this is life " ..hahaha,, ! not saying that im happy that this thing is happening to them,, but let's face it, they know i was helping them in their lives and problems..

good to know that your friends know how important you are to them, but they refuse to show you that because they're to kiddo to say that they were wrong.. proves to me how lucky i am to leave this group of friends for just a MAN and a GIRL.. and yea you can tell i've learned A LOT!! and i've grown up...

as for the growing up thing,, i feel that these days of my life are the most important days of my life.. because now,, i learn from every single situation,, every word said in every conversation is now a lesson for me.. every word i hear from a friend or from a guy i talk to turns to be a way of changing my way of responding to it to a better way of dealing with people..
Now, every situation i go through with anyone of my friends or any one of my teachers,, or even anyone is a scene that i play in my mind to take what i need from it.. transform it ( i just heard this word ) to a way of reacting to the same situation again.. not to fall in the same mistakes twice.. not to go through the same life i've been through in the past..
I do lots and lots of mistakes, yet i learn from them.. i wasn't born perfect,, and will not be,, but i can always be a better person than who i am now.. now i know that i am a bigger person, who has a more of a peaceful mind,, yea not a peaceful one.. but the space of calm thinking of my situation now is gettin bigger and bigger, letting me more of a balanced person between my thoughts and my actions.. my feelings and my real life situation.. i'm more of a deeper person from the inside... deeper than ever.. someone who looks like a grown up now.. who is a grown up now.. who you can count on, and it shows that people can count me... coz people do this now more than ever.. people are depending on me in this phase of life,, and i'm not letting them down... coz i worth this trust.. and i'm up to it.. :)

Lessons Learned.... Next Chapter of Life.. Welcome!
:D

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WAKEE UPPP SOONN!!!!

nobody@vox.com(Socceraholic..) — Wed, 22 Aug 2007 15:47:25 +0300

*yawns*... aaahhhh.. good afternoon people.. its 3 in ther afternoon and i just woke up... so tired... i missed lunch at home coz we have it at around 2 or somethin.. so there's no lunch ,, or actually breakfast.. !

so,, plans for tonight? emm,, im goin out for dinner.. i should go for dinner with friends.. i want to go to Burger Boutique.. in the sake of tryin somethin new ! *yawns again* ...

or,,, nothing... *yawns againa and again*.. ok,, i should go do somethin... walk around,, call some friends for the dinner.. do whatever.. im thinkin about makin a new CD but man,, no good songs !

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start of Day 6...

nobody@vox.com(Socceraholic..) — Fri, 10 Aug 2007 14:12:46 +0300

well,, mornin,, or afternoon... or goodnight if you're in the far west and didn reach mornin yet.. !

had lunch at home.. and it was grilled fish with some rice.. ! :) amazing food that mom makes..

for today,, i got a game in like 5 hours.. 7 pm ...but i want to go buy a T-shirt.. and i wanna go to the beach tomorrow.. i wish i can find some1 t ogo with me.. im callin my friends later to see who wants to come with me.. or im goin to IMAX theater tomorrow... i dont know yet..

well,, lets just take a walk around here.. later....

im listenin, to MJ's Earth song.... this is weird.. ok,, i dont know what's my mood since i got sick of trance ... !! haha

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morning morning...

nobody@vox.com(Socceraholic..) — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 07:51:15 +0300

good morning people around there.. =)
it's been a good sleep last night,, slept like 9 straight hours,, without a single thing to bother.. though my friend called me and i answered the call and talked,, but i didnt feel it.. so it doesn count... hahaha ,,, so yesterday i woke up at 1 am .. today ,, 6 am ... what a difference.. ! yea,, i managed to do everything possible just not to sleep...

like after havin lunch at home,, eatin somekind of the best meal in ages... i went to see a friend in the airport,, he goes there coz the WIFI connection there is historical ! ,, yea stayed with him for like 2 hours till 6 in the afternoon .. then went to the mall ,, i wanted to buy boxers... ( did i say that loud ) hahaha ,, yea i was goin to buy some boxers !! thats the reason... ! but i ended up with beach slippers from Quiksilver ! i kinda love the store.. its amazing.. i love the colors.. hahaha .. !

QPMSL033BLK

and because im so in love with black women clothes ( ok ,, this is the parts where it goes sexy ) hahaha ! i saw ana amazing swimwear for ladies.. ! i found this black roxy bikini hahha... and it was amazing,, ! but i cant find it's picture.. !! hahaha! white bra with black curved stripes.... with black undies,, with the word roxy on the back white colored... just sexy !!
aahahah...

Ok ,,, now im tryin
to do something for the rest of this afternoon ,, i want to go out have lunch somewhere out ... i need to .. it's been like 2 weeks since my last lunch with my friends... though i see them sometimes in school..yea,, i should go out today...

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HAHAHAH... well,, that's a Record Thomas!!

nobody@vox.com(Socceraholic..) — Sat, 07 Jul 2007 18:38:01 +0300

Ok ,, Today i feel like writing.. :D
it was supposed to be a day in college,, with a quiz ,, a homework ,, and 2 reports to hand out.. ! BUT
it was a 13 and a half ours of sleep.. and i dont regret it ,, at all.. !! i mean from 2 a.m till 3.35 pm .. !! THIS IS AMAZING !!

other than that,, before like 2 weeks, i got to know this amazing friend Thomas. he's from Holland,, bigger than me in like 3 weeks only.. and though i know him for a very short time ,, only on MSN,, but i'm sure that this guy is a Blessing... hahaha ,, ok ( we're not gay ) .. but he's really a very cool dude,, JUST LIKE ME.. i mean we do like the same things,, the same philosophy in life.. the same way of living and thinkin.. almost the same studying level,, and over all.. he's A TRUE FRIEND,, remember when i wrote can i find some1 who knows what do i want to say without more explanation,,, HE'S THE MAN... he helped me alot get over my problems,, helped me the most with a friend of mine.. ! and moreover,, HE'S A VALENCIA CF FAN.. another thing we agree on.. actually,, we agree on everything,, once i was talkin to friend about him ,, and guess what was the words to decribe him " HE'S ME IN HOLLAND " .. as simple as this... and i've added meeting this guy to my dream list.. YEA,, GOIN TO VALENCIA CITY,, meeting this guy.. ! hangin' out with him.. he's amazing... he's been a true friend.. an amazing one..

hahahah,,, i know you'll be reading this one day.. but DUDE,, u rock ! xD

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SO,, here comes the shades!!!

nobody@vox.com(Socceraholic..) — Tue, 12 Jun 2007 21:20:37 +0300

me,, my new shades,, and my friend!

hehehe,, after some searchin... !!

i found those,, dont ask me about the brand,, coz i guess its not so famous,, called "POLAR" ..

i just donnu.. found those,, they were Okay.. not so expensive.. and finally they fit on my face..! coz being skinny is good in some ways,,, bad in more other ways.. !!

well,, what i like is the curve,, and its BLACKKK!!! for the burnin sun here.. !! ,, so tell me what do u think ?

( yea,, dont laugh at my friend,, he got his shoulder dislocated.. ! for the 2nd time in a year.. ! ).... hahaha!!

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some thoughts,,, some life,, some hope,, some of everything...

nobody@vox.com(Socceraholic..) — Sat, 14 Apr 2007 01:40:28 +0300

Staind - chapter V - 10 Take this

Staind

i cant believe,,, how far i've come....

watch me stumble,, and come undone....

if you take away ,, these memories...

then all that's left.. is just ME....

i dont know how im feeling right now,, its just like u feeling down,, tryin to push urself up a little.. but its too hard to do that...

i used to help myself alot ,,, make myself feel better.. not now.. !!

i've been through ALOT... ALOT.... its just hard to take all these stuff and throw them on me.. and all together.. i just cant get my head straight on one thought.. it's all mixing up .. like the branches of a tree blocking the sunlight,,,, its just keeps it cloudy inside ur head... u cant even think of one idea without another one jumping to the surface of ur brain cryin ,, that u think about it...

I dont know who should i take care of... myself or my friends? .... my skool sucks and i suck in it.. i do alot but i dont get as much as i do... its lettin me down sometimes but i keep on fighting...

i keep tryin to keepin my thoughts organized as much as i can.. but im livin a mess of a life.. its all mixed up ... and it is all confusing.... SHIT.. ! i wrote alot...

llistening to staind is more like weed.. it makes u feel down and like you're the only fucked up person around u .. we are all....gd night for me...

i have an exam tomorrow... yeah i'll do well.. i keep tellin myself that...

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